Filed under: Inspired
Well I ahven’t really written much in the past week but my mind and body have been in other places.
Where to start? Well I joined an evening course in Film Studies which will give me an AS level at the end, this was another big step for me which I would have never have achieved had I not walked into that Slimming World class in May, I am pleased that the class is small and strangely fully female. It made me feel more comfortable, and I had absolutely no problem speaking in front of everybody. Slowly and surely I am starting to see glimpse of the pre-nervous breakdown me. We watched Fargo, which none of the other students had heard of, this was more due to probably only just being born when it came out rather then a complete lack of film knowledge. I think that because it is a subject I am passionate about and I am the oldest at 31, lol sooo old 
, that I have managed to create a comfort zone.
But the big news of the moment, that I have been daydreaming, smiling and googling about is that in just over a year I am going to feel the fear in a big way and move to Germany to be with the man I love. This has given my life a direction , a goal and a purpose all things that I have been lacking for a very long time. With new purpose is a new desire to change things for the better, I do not want to be on anti-depressants for the rest of my existence, and I am not a depressive person by nature it is just that a lot of very bad things happened along the journey up until now. A fresh start in a new country, with a man I KNOW is “the one” is a chance for me to bundle up all the crap that happened in the past attach lead weights to it and drop it in the middle of the ocean. Now all I have to do is learn a different language… Dass ist gut ja?
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Oooh sprackenzie Slimming World over there? xx
Comment by Vicky September 24, 2009 @ 7:58 pmWell I did get the OH to make Burgers and chutney from this month’s magazine from my emailed instructions, he’s an SW in training! The food is quite different so is kinda hard to translate the HEX’s etc without seeing the food myself.
Comment by slimgirlinmymind September 24, 2009 @ 8:07 pm